Talent and training

I am jealous. Absolutely, undeniably a green-eyed monster when I see people with talent. Those born with it. The ability to pick things up quickly and well. In. BJJ, I see them. And I feel envy.

I don't have talent. It doesn't come easy. I backslide a bit for any step forward. I feel stupid. And slow. And absolutely jealous.

That being said, I work. I am at class every night of the week, barring scheduling conflicts. At the very least, I get five instead of eight classes in. As jealous as I am of the talented, I am so grateful to have them in my school. I get to work and roll with them. I get to pick their brains for help. I may not like the constant submissions, but I am learning, albeit slowly.

Thank you for kicking my ass ;)

Elvira, the talented and myself